I’m breaking up with my body and my mind.
Yep, you heard me. I’m dumping them. I’m kicking them to the curb. This relationship is O. V. E. R.
It’s been a long time since I’ve experienced a breakup, and never before with my body or my mind. I think it’s going to be hard, and there will be tears and stress. I’m probably going to want to take them back, to say we can make it work, that there must be a way.
But honestly? Fuck that! We are THROUGH. I am done with fighting them, hating them, being held back by them. I am over the fighting between mind and body, the negativity and hate.
Instead I’m going out to build a new relationship. A relationship that is tender and caring, loving and gentle, supportive and encouraging. A relationship that focuses on the positive, the future, and perpetual improvement. A relationship of confidence and acceptance. A relationship that will carry me to and through the future I want and deserve.
A relationship with a new mind, new body and renewed spirit. A relationship within myself that will allow to rebuild and repair my relationships with others. A relationship that will allow me to love and support others more and better by loving and supporting myself more and better.
A relationship with a lot of bubble baths, good books, clothes that fit, long walks, trips to the swimming pool, prayer, meditation, nourishing foods, carrots and cupcakes, and the occasional pedicure at my favourite spa. A relationship with mistakes and shortcomings and new beginnings and forgiveness. A relationship that will be perfect in its imperfections.
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