At Bat

So this is me. Hi!

This is me and all my 200lbs.

This is my “before” for this round of healthy lifestyle changes.

I have had many an “a ha” moment, in terms of wanting to change.

But these pictures… jeeez. Apparently my image of my body is more distorted than I thought. I know I’m fat, that I’m carrying more weight than I want to or should, but I didn’t realise that *this* is how I look right now.

I look in the mirror and see a woman who is pretty skinny for being fat, if that makes any sense at all. I have a pretty good figure, under all this extra weight – I’ve got a pretty hourglass shape, lots of boobs and hips, with a smaller waist.

I just.. I didn’t realise. Batter up

When did my arms and thighs become so wide? When did I get such a pooch?

I love my body for many reasons. My body lets me walk, skip, play ball, go dancing with my friends. Other than being fat, I’m pretty healthy – my asthma is well managed, my blood pressure and other stats are good, etc. My body lets me snuggle up to my boyfriend, comfort and laugh with my friends, and play tag with my Brownies.

I just don’t love this. I don’t love the body I see in these pictures.

This is not my body. This is some other body, hiding mine away. This body does not fit.

This body has GOT to go.


One Response to “Body.”

  1. Don’t be so hard on yourself. It’s a struggle.

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